...2007 and the rest of my life!

...Right...

It's the first time in my life that I actually went to sleep on 22:00 PM on December 31 2006, yes! I'm such a punker that I decided to simple doze off into 2007 in a dream style and not in an over paid, overrated ridicules public social event.

It's true that I woke up at 00:00 when world war 3 happen outside my doorstep and all over the land, what a wonderful display of ammunition, what a waste of good money and what a horrifying river of noise. I felt back in Vietnam, looked like a regular afternoon in central Baghdad...and the smell, truly a unique gun powder aroma...

Anyway, it's about 00:36 and I'm sitting here in front of my favorite piece of machinery and I'm writing a blog while pretty much everyone I know is outside celebrating and so on and so on..this year it's a bit different for me.

I had a very powerful mind breaking meditation early on today and I really came up with a clear vision of how I should continue my life on earth, I realise that I want to change many things, well..not that many but defiantly some issues which I have been boggling with for many many years now..i found out that if I won't find the strength to make a change now, I probably never will, that thought alone made me feel weak and lost. I didn't like that feeling, even if I knew it so well.

So I decided to let go of social pressures and stand up for what I think is best for me, I done it before but never on such a special event, a date which by god means we all know that it's a must to celebrate, to rave and be merry. Truth is, The day don't mean a thing, just because it's on the calendar followed by a lunar cycle and everybody follows it don't mean you must do too! I realise that I can party and feel happy every day, I can celebrate and make new resolutions any day of the year, and on the 31 of December I can sleep or party like never before, it really doesn't meter.

Honestly I picked this day specially since the past few weeks I have been going nuts about my life and the way I wish to take it to the next level, yes! I do see levels in one's life, I sure do see levels in my own life, like a staircase going up, even if sometimes I feel like I'm falling it's still falling up. I choose this day because it's easy, it's convenient and I'm sure I'm not the only one. A new year, put the old one aside, pretty easy date to fix things in your life, well, you better have determination because you will need it.

The changes I want to make are not for the next 365 days, I want them to be for as long as I live, so I guess I will need a much bigger pile of strength and determination that I though. The point is to start, to have the main idea of a change, to move forward and simply not give up! I know it's too easy to say it then to actually do it, but I believe it's possible, specially after seeing it happen in my life quite a few times..

I think it's called faith in oneself...god could be involve also on this, so you better believe in something..

It's almost 1:15 in the morning and the fire squad is still exploding outside but the feeling of happy happy joy joy is fading away, people getting back to their lives, maybe with a Huge hang over building up for tomorrows morning or simply being shit faced already, maybe some only start to enjoy themselves after the 12:00 o'clock rush and maybe some didn't even leave the couch. My life looks the same as before, but something inside of my feel a bit different, some weird sense of self is growing, some awareness of being, some responsibility of my own thoughts and actions..it's small but it's bigger then an hour ago..i think it's me, the real one this time, the soul...i think I'm on the right track for a change..i think this will be a turning point in my so called life...i think this is it..I guess only time will tell...

...happy new year ! And much much more...

Much love and success on your life's quest..

Adida The Fallen Angel..

...A letter to a friend with the same name..

... I guess after using so much drugs at the end I just don't need it anymore, and I found out once my brain has opened it's 3rd eye I can't go higher with drugs anymore...it backdraft on me...so I guess my karma with drugs is quite over...sweet.
There where times I was so hooked on it that I didn't see the light, I didn't even knew there was a light..I knew one day will come and it will start to change..i love change, shows me that things are moving, shows me that life can be altered to so many directions in which a special strong soul can move to...makes me stronger just thinking about that..
Recentner oneself is the best ! I do it once or twice a day, I must..there are so many things I wish to accomplish that I would go nuts if I didn't chill myself and check myself before I rack myself, Yo!
I must say that I think you are a very wise soul, not many on earth these days, at least not many that take the time to look behind the mirror and see if the picture works for them, I see great future in those who have their eyes open..i truly do..
As for being a vegi...probebly the smartest thing I did (after stopping drinking alcohol !!!) It made me apprise simple food, it made me learn to cook and see the beautiful world of vegetables and fruits...i never been more healthy in my life..i love cooking ! So much fun...and the energy you get once you cook with love...super power !!! this is the best time of my life...i worked for it, I pray for it and I made it happen, none of this would work if I didn't believe in myself, and believing and communication with god made me have faith and hope even when I was down and drowning ! I'm so in love with life and so aware about death and life after all this nonsense brain fucking, I'm so into eternal energy and hidden magic, true that I feel alienated most of the day but I do feel connected in a real strong vibe to this place and it's souls..i know karma very well...so I take care with my business on earth...i'm going to heaven no matter what !

what's my next project !?? well, working at the tattoo art studio will give me plenty of work..making designs and T shirts, updating the site, networking...i hope it will be the bomb and it will bring good clients and new friends...some cash would be sweet too...
I'm totally fixing my life now, cleaning the soul, the house, my mind and heart...it's this time of year! I'm uploading my movies to my video page and also Youtube simply because I have so many visual projects and they are not on-line..so many people know me from my visual work and all my videos are not on-line ! Not anymore...
Got a gig with my band on the 13, with another wicked band called Noblesse ! They are rocking..we will blow that place away, what a great way to start the year, Rock&Roll baby...
So I'm also will be fixing my Myspace and my bands space..i'm making a DVD promo for my band with wicked clips and funny visuals to send it world wide... I'm going to build some more website for my friends the artists, singers and writers that started to see the potential of having an on-line portfolio, myspace really boosted the need for networking skills and when you have it..it fucking works !!!
I also going to start working with a modeling agency, taking photos and building sites...i need to find models to ask prices so I will know how much a model takes for a photoshop and such..let me know if you know something..
I guess playing gaiter till my fingers bleed and writing new songs will be a new daily thing noq...i also going to stop smoking on the 01, not that I smoke that much (1 cigi per day!)...maybe become celibate for a while..did that for a few years..my god I was so into everything when I was doing that...i want more experience, more knowledge and more chilling life...i'm going to dive back into my stones and the healing process...do more diving into reading all those books that collecting dust on my table, writing a blog so I can get all these nonsense of my back...no more kaka!

I feel like reborning...who's with me?!?

Adida The Fallen Angel...